Well here lately i have been trying to get everything together and praying about grad school. I have been praying about grad school and guidance. Sometimes I get nervous because I think where am I going and what is my purpose?
My dating situation is just too crazy. Some of the men today are just too crazy in the dating world. I am not male bashing because i know it is some good men out there. Some men just think it is okay that they do not have a job, leave with their mother, and no car. They want to date you and you think why are you trying to date. It is like they have no goals for themselves. One guy actually is 28 years old and he wants to be a DJ (like for parties). I was thinking to myself are you serious that is your life dream but now he aint doing anything in that area.
The next guy is 20 and it is just funny because i am just too old and he said if it doesnt bother me it doesnt bother him. The conversation is sad because he is trying to be more mature but it does not work. Then it is like I cant even do anything to try and make it work because I know he is just too young.
So i am like i am going to start over and just relax and focus on myself and the thing s I want to do.
It is crazy because the men wonder what is wrong with me when i dont want to be with them.
Well until next time

Ere lately I have been in like a dream world. Well I should say I have been having a great time !!! I have been hangin and just having fun laughing again. You that laughter that just thinking about it makes you smile or even laugh again. I have been trying to get bakc in line as far as school goes. It seems that sometimes i have to think where am I going? Am I doing what I have to do to make that happen? I know where I am at is not where I want to continue to be. I also know when I have my own things going on I dont focus on others so much. I guess I just have to continue to pray for balance. I have been sorta negative meaning I have been pointing out the negative in any situation. I mean I have to focus on me alot more. I know I am not perfect I even realized before my mother pointed it out. People say people do that when they are unhappy :(. I also think things can be handled differently I guess the way I feel they should especialy when it comes to my family. But then I am wasting my breath. I think that's what my mother was saying. But I see different things that my parents dont but I may be over stepping my boundaries as a older sibling. So what I am going to do is just step off and let my parents handle everything and step in when asked. But I figure if you know I have a bossy attitude and I have been known tyo take over then you gotta be careful what I am asked to do. It is going to be difficult but I gotta do. I try not to let things bother me but they do. As I am typing IO actually have several things I gotta take care of over being worried about things I cannot control.
I know what happen I stopped reading my Bbile and studying daily and I need to get back together and apply myself in the right areas. My life !!!!!!.
So until the next time. I gotta test and a presentation to study for and I want the best grade possible.

Hello everybody!!!!
Last week was truly a new chapter. I took a step into volunteering. I went on want is called Alternative Spring Break. Which instead of spending a week in Cancun or having fun away from home. We about 33 students stayed at a Synagogue for a week. We ate at different ethnic restaurants each night (Polish, Mexican, southern, and middle eastern). IT was quite a trip because i meet new people and yes I was one of the older people. I tried not to act my age but it was a bit difficult at times. WE were divided into 3 groups ( Art and Culture, Crime and Blight, ANd Hunger and Homelessness). My group was hunger and homelessness. We went to a rescue mission and prepared tolietry kits, sorted clothes, and helped in the soup kitchen. THe next few days we helped build sheds for the Habitat for Humanity. I did not get on the roof. It was cold a few days. I also leveled a yard :). WE also each day we would go to different areas together as a big group like the juvenile detention center, art center, a home pregnant teens, and a tour of the city. It was a nice get away and the people were fun.
Also the baby arrived during that time on Wednesday. So I left to go and help my friend. My mother and her sister in law were there also. I have never seen a baby born before. I must admit she did a wonderful job in breathing and pushing. It seemed the baby was waiting on her daddy to get to the hospital before she would just come on out. She is the cutest little thing though she weighed 7 lbs 4 oz and 21 inches. She actually looks like a little Eskimo. She had a head full of hair. Mom and baby are doing fine so far.
My family is doing fine.
Me I am still trying to get things in order I dont know what happen but I have gotten behind in a few areas. But i will get it back together.
ALso we left the group on Friday and we were meeting for lunch on Tuesday. I was thinking dang why so quick but then I was thinking why not I aint doing nothing else and then I would have been upset if I wasn't invited. So I went and had fun they want to get together again.

I have to write a paper in Psy of Women. I decided to write about Women as Pastors. I have to argue a point if I think they should or shouls not. It does not matter which side I pick. Does anybod have a comment/feedback. I haven't decided which side to take because with the Bible it can take either said when you look at the Old Testament and the New Testament. And then with so many books to back it up who knows,

Today I took the GRE which is the Graduate Record Exam for grad school admission it is one of the many tools that are used to determine if your going to start and complete grad school. I think I did pretty good. I took the practice test last night. This morning I was so sleepy and then I had to leave early 7:30 am so I would not be late. Another thing I requested a copy of my transcripts and it cost $10.00 to request over the phone and $4.00 by mail. I was thinking to myself it is 2006 please catch up with the modern technology. $10.00 because I want to pay over the telephone get out of here. Needless to say I got money orders and requested by mail. I was talking to my younger brother yesterday and step forward because He and I could not be in the same room long let alone talk to each other without getting into a argument of some type. He is about to graduate from HS and is thinking about college. I was providing a few tips for the application prcess for financial aid. I was trying to give him some encouragement to move forward. PRAYER CHANGES THINGS. I have been praying for our relationship because he cause more divison in the house. So the Lord heard my prayers and answered them.
My job search has been placed on temporary hold as I focus on grad school admission ( applications and scholarships). I am in the library at school and this guy has a cute face with freckles but if you all can imagine dreadlocks (locks to be correct) That are short at the top like somebody cut them and then the back is long and in a ponytail (haha) He needs a haircut. It looks crazy because his locks are unkept which is not cute at all. I see he wears a hat to cover them.
The baby shower is this Saturday for my crazy friend. She mailed the invitations with old stamps .37 cent instead of the .39 cent. Now that was funny cause she mailed Saturday at the last minute. I have been trying to get her to walk more per the doctors statement that it is good for her. I try to do my part as the Godmother (you know safe arrival) and yes I do take my newly appointed position as the serious
That's about all I am focusing on here lately. I will continue to stay positive and move forward !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!